Am I?

I do hate this kind of feeling.

It's like what I felt before.

It is the same mistake back four years ago.

When the shadow of my first heart began.

For the past six months.

One thing I realized, I keep coming back to him.

I tried to hide it, I tried to run from it.

But I can't, it tears me apart.

At first I thought it was a game.

But then my heart began to smile again.

I wanna be with him.

I wanna see him always.

I made walls between us because of what he told me before.

But then that walls began to collapsed.

Something behind that wall is ready.

Something behind that is cured.

Wherever I go, I can see his face.

I can smell his scent.

Do I become so soft?

Or just another delusion.

"Oh great am I falling again? It's a scary thing?!!!"

Still Lingers

The reason I get up on bed with a smile.
Amazing how your smell still lingers in my skin.
The reason why I forgot him.
It's all because of you.

Paintbrush.

I believe that everything in this world are connected like our souls that bound to each other, our feelings have a great impact, it's like a knot that can't be broken. Our feelings will continue until our next lives begin. Maybe our grace will changed even our faith but not the feelings.