Oktubre 26, 2012

Bittersweet Happiness (The Freefalling)

Do you know what true love is? It’s not just a three words, it’s a feeling you will never forget, a feeling you can’t easily express. Once you feel this sweet thing, it’s like all of your dreams can come true. It has ups and down. You and that special person will argue from time to time, jealousy, doubts and hate arises, but you know what’s the best part of true love,  - at the end of the day , you’ll staying together again. You will accept all his flaws even if it hurts you a lot.

Understanding, trust and forgiving is the formula of that sweet recipe. But here comes pain, when half of your heart decided to take a leap away from you. The only thing that left to you is the sweet memories, and a touch that still lingers on your skin. It will take days, months and years to accept the fact that half of your heart will be gone forever but part of you will always be waiting. You decide that you will live a new life, you will be meeting different kinds of people, you will meet someone you thought they’re special but at the end of it all you can see is your true love’s face, all you can remember is that sweet memories.

For all these years, I came to understand now, what’s the meaning of “pain behind the smile.” I treasure all the sweet memories that him and I made. I miss those nights when him and I dance, those places we’ve been through. I miss those dozens of roses every time I wake up. Those pinky promises and that wonderful ring. I appreciate surprises because of him. I don’t know how many years will this pain remains but for now, I must do what I must do.

And when I’m ready to take that freefall again, I know what to do; I will make that someone happy and protect him from pain, because I know what pain is, I believe that someone out there deserves a real caring, laughter and love, just like what I deserved. I’ll hold that someone’s hand tight and I will never let go of it.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).